If I’m being honest about where my head’s been at, I have been feeling totally uninspired. Or rather, the momentary inspirations just haven’t fit my schedule. I’ve been struggling to post on social media and in my accountability group because I just haven’t been able to sit still. I’ll be in the middle of getting Esther’s dinner prepped when all of a sudden, inspiration strikes! But by the time I am able to sit down and write, I can’t put my thoughts together whatsoever…
So, here I am, curled up in my bed 20 minutes after putting Esther to sleep and negotiating with myself to not turn on Netflix instead. That’s been my go-to lately. I’m currently working through Jane the Virgin which is a lot funnier than I thought it would be. It’s also the first show in a while that had me so involved with the characters that when something big happened, I literally jumped off the couch in shock (don’t worry, no spoilers here).
Anyways, this is my attempt at fasting from Netflix for the evening. I’ve learned that I can’t “rest” and “work” at the same time. Watching Netflix is a way for me to decompress. I love it so much that I trick myself into thinking I can watch it while I work. But I end up fighting a battle between resting and getting actual work done and in the end I don’t feel rested or productive.
Rhythms for Life
I’ve started reading this book called Rhythms of Renewal. In it, it talks about how we are able to be our best selves when we are in rhythm; when rest, restore, connect, and create play their respective roles in our daily lives. The first chapter is about taking inventory. When you take time to pause and evaluate what’s working, what’s not working and how God’s calling for you is playing out in this season, it gives you a chance to refocus. A good indicator that you need to take inventory is if you’re feeling burnt out or anxious often. The biggest indicator that I needed to take inventory was a lack of passion for what I was doing. I knew I loved the things I am involved in, but I didn’t feel it.
Taking inventory is part of the rhythm called Rest. Honestly, I thought I rocked at this rhythm but it turned out to be the one I struggle the most with… This rhythm isn’t about just any old rest, it’s about God-blessed rest. What I mean by that is that God intended for us to take time to rest. We were not made to be constantly on the go. When we don’t take time for this kind of rest, we become anxious, burnt out, and over-stressed.
We don’t have to run to earn rest; we run fueled by a posture of rest.Rhythms of Renewal, Rebekah Lyons
I can’t be the only one that’s done this: worked really hard to earn a day off. I know I’ve had weeks where I’m just trying to make it to the weekend so I can relax after a busy week. But how different would the week look if instead of using the weekend to recover from the previous week, we used it to prepare us for what God will do in the coming week? I feel like this approach would actually help us feel less exhausted by the end of the week.
That’s the kind of attitude Rebekah is talking about when she writes that “we run fueled by a posture of rest”. This posture of rest is found by taking time to reconnect with our Creator. For me, that means setting aside distractions and letting my writing flow. It means asking God to open my eyes to the story He is writing for my life.
I know it’s been a slow couple of months on the blog here and I apologize. I’ve been so busy with pursuing different expressions of my calling that I haven’t taken a whole lot of time to pour my thoughts out. I also didn’t own a journal for about 2 months! Which, if you know me, is kind of a big deal because I LOVE to journal. But even having just spent the last 30 minutes creating a conversation about everything and nothing has helped me feel more rested and hopefully kick-started my creativity again!
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